Paid a visit!

It was a great day after all. And YES I did see the lolita shop MFashion! You can't imagine how excited I was to go there. My whole journey there was a big nervous adventure. I had no idea what to expect. For all the lolita clothes I have ever seen where on the internet. So it was such an auwsome experience to actually hold these cute dresses in my hands.
When I saw the shop from a distance already I started to feel the butterflies banging against throat. I felt like shouting and cheering at the sight of it. In the window was a beautiful pink dress with bows, and a creme coloured coat with heart shaped pockets and a stoler attached.
When I finally ventured inside I beheld a tiny shop. I had not expected it to be so small. But that didn't mean that it was empty. No it was full, literally stuffed with pretty pink things. I made sure to look at least at every section of the shop. If I had money comming out of my ears I would have bought something, but sadly it was very expensive. They even had the original Japanese price tags on the items:P
I took two flyers with me from the shop that the lady, working there, handed me and left. And of course made a memorial picture that I can show here in my blog:)

I've written eveything down that I will be ordering online and I'm very excited to have them in my own hands.

Toodles for now ^^

Lolita Shop!

I am so excited right now!
Today I will be visiting a lolita fashion shop:)
I've never seen these cute dresses in real life before, and to have them at hands reach would just be too amazing!
As far as I know there is only one of these kind of shops in the Netherlands. Except the shop from my mum which will be selling them too shortly:P ( due to my helping hand:P).

I just can't wait:) It's in Utrecht which is about an hour from where I life, so first some train traveling together with my bf.

For more info please check the link to the shop's website below:

http://www.mfashion.eu/

Toodles xx^^

Mood: Excited I can't sleep anymore:)
Place: My room quater to ten in the morning.

Today I had a good day!

I have to admit after getting out of bed on the wrong foot, this morning, my day was very much satisfying.
I didn't really want to go to work this morning, and did end up going knowing it was the right thing to do.
I travel by train every morning, which I dislike at times, due to it being overally busy. I can't stand the people standing so close to me. Plus they make sure to pusha nd run into the overaly crowded train trying to have s seat, when they actually already know they won't be able to purchase.
Well this morning I was too busy to even notice this, because I was so busy reading my book "Brisinger" from the Eragon series. Sadly I've finished reading it today :'( They're such auwsome books, by the way! I really do recommend. See attched for some more pics^^.

Try as I might this whole lolita thing was racing through my head. I want to know everything I can about this new found culture so that I can adapt it to my own life.
But I got to admit this is going to be a toughy. It's quite hard to work into everyday working life and at home I don't really have much of a day over. Well hopefully with the job ending soon, I will.
I've found such great websites, that I will be ordering such cute clothing and accessories from and I can't wait! It makes me all excited. I love being a girl, it just has so many advantages.

I'm following a really cool girl's blog on lolita and I have to say I'm pleased to have found her, she's so inspiring.
See link below for more info^^:

http://makelovely.wordpress.com/

Toodles^^
Mcduff

Lolita is the word!

So I've finally decided on one thing and to try to keep it. I have to admit I've got a good feeling about this. Which is a different feeling than I usualy have about these kind of things. It's going to be lolita from now on. I'll be keeping track of my lolita ettiquette here as well as noting down my progress and ventures in this new world full of frills, and sweet pink things. I woke up quite happy today so thats already a great start!:) Music:Nana -Lucy Mood:Happy and hungry Place:My room

Cloud of mist

What can I say..? It all just feels so different now, I'm frightened, well at least now not as much as before.
But it feels so empty, this empty space beside me.
Or more a big gap that has caved in between the two of us.
I feel so lost and my head is in a cloud of mist.
My heart aches, though now it's more numb than before,
I feel so helpless, useless in some way.
I just want to hold you and look after you in my arms,
making sure your safe makes, me, feel safe.
I wonder every day which step to take next not wanting to dwell off of this path,
I worried to make a wrong step, away from all this,
I know we're meant to be, maybe not just yet, but we will be..!

Just another day at the beginning of the holiday

The holidays have just started, and with some headstress I just had to leave home for a few days.
Alot has been going on latey and I haven't been all good to writeit into my dairy every end of the week;-)
The most terrible happening these few weeks was the death of poor Michael Jackson.
It was so unexpected, and at such a young age of only 50.
Too, young, just too young!
So there I was listening to all the songs on the tv.
All the famous ones, and the classic's too, like Thriller and so on.
The memorial send off was the day before yesterday, whilst I was on the train on my way to Germany.
My Aunt had finally given birth to her baby daughter, whom I'd of loved to see.
Sadly the contact was quite weak, due to all the stress of baby, family and so on.
So the phone was kept off.
Shame, instead I came to my family in Gerderath; Aunty Juliane, Uncle Ian, and cousin Mellissa.
It was a very last minute notice in comming over, I believe I called round about 5.
My train was to leave at 19 minutes past 7, therefore arriving at half past 9 in the evening in Roermond.
So it's the summer holidays now, and I thought my OV had run out already I bought myself a ticket, though finding out a little later from the train conducter that I could still use the OV, thatr it only runs oout on the 16th.
-_- My was I fooled!
I certainly helps reading what it says on the back of the OV card XD
So you have these fooled moments once every while, very normal, but there did go my 14,40 euro.
What have I been up to?
Not too much, jsut taking it easy, and catching up on some lovely sleep, and spending some time with the family.
What can be better than that?
From what I recalled today, was that yesterday was mine and Stefan's 8 month.
I sent him a message congradulating him, and that I loved him much!
Oh, live right now, it good, though there are too many things going through my mind which I wish didn't.
The past really gets in the way, and jsut bloks your way in going forwards.
This thing came up again which jsut shocked me, and I jsut told myself, it's in the past,and it'S all different now.
I keep telling myself this, but somehow, it keeps siving though like a gigantic sive that had been tried to be fixed by bloking up the holes.
It's like I have two different sides, the side thats very calm and forging and jsut thinks straight, and the other an overreaction of emotion.
It's terrible, one moment all calm and the next 7.8 on the rikter scale.
My new method now, when I hear something that would irritant me, worry me or evern shock me and make me sad and therefore angry, I would then just shut my eyes, breathe in and out deeply and jsut take a few seconds to think about it, and then react to what has been said to me.
It's still a little difficult,but I'm trying my best.
Maybe I'm just so worried about my friends and the stupid things they can do that I can't relax properly myself ;-p

One cool things I can tell you is that I finally don't have to sleep on the floor anymore! :D
Yes you've guessed it, I have myself a new bed!
But the coolest thing was that I got it for free!
With the help of Stefan of course.
We were first picking up a new sofa for my room there when we drove past the Ikea when I mentioned the bed.
The man had then remembered that just the day before he bought a bed to the kringloop.
We could try to get it back.
And indeed we did!
Quite an adventure!
We straypainted it in the end.
Because it was a bluey colour, and black fitted better to my bedroom colours.

Well tomorrow is the last day of my stay here in Germany.
I'll be leaving between 3 and 4 in the afternoon, adn should be home about 6 ish.
To find me falling, once again, into Stefan's arms!

Waiting can be sooo deadly!

It's been about 1 and a half day since our last seeing (mine and Stefan's) and I'm dreading it already!
Well dreading it, hmm, maybe in other words;...I'm missing him very much.
Saturday was supposed to be 6 months together, untill I realised, when I overlooked the calender, I was once wrong again and that it was 7 months instead.
Very typical of me.
I, at times, can be so simple.
Anyways, 7 months that's a big thing, to be celebrating.
Seeing we didn't really celebrate it the month before( this was becasue I jsut came out of the operation room; hevn't gotten my tonsils taken out) we're up to much this weekend.
There is a suprise waiting for me saturday:)
The only words were to get dressed up warm, and to bring the blanket again.
So I'm very much looking forward to it.

*tum tum tum, tralala*
*Thinking into space*


You know what I'm think about right now?
That I still have to clean my room, and I'm quite looking forward to dinner.
I wonder what we'll be having.
Yesterday I started making my own dress, due to the occation saturday, I want to suprise him with this new look of mine.
It's a silver skirt with a black petticoat underneath, and the top is black.
I'll be wearing it with black tights, a black jacket and in my hands a cute bush of three roses.
It excites me to excite him.
I cannot wait to behold the loving smile of his face, when he sees me.:)
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On saturday the 6th of June
Is the day of all days,
the day we vowed to be one, exactly 7 months ago,
And for this day of all days will be sunniest and happiest of all the normal week days,
On the friday around about 8 you shall behold her.
Comming toward you as a distant speck,
From far you can already see there's something special about her,
She shinners through the streetlamp lit light,
Her gown glisening,
The closer she comes,
the more beauty she beares upon ones eyes
and with her red lips kissing yours ever so gently,
she embraces you with her eternal love,
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Wait for me my love, there is jsut one more day!
And one last chance to miss one another!