Its time for?!: A collage of Coords

Its been quite some time since my last collage of coords post and I would like to make them a weekly or monthly thing on my blog. In these posts I basically pretend to be the richest Lolita ever,  own everything there is to own in Lolita/Kawaii fashion and make fun coord collages of clothing and accessory items. They are a lot of fun to do. Ive really gotten into using the Polyvore tool and I would love to share my collages with you from there. The cool thing about Polyvore is that it will also show you where the item is from and how much it costs. So if you happen to like an item on a Polyvore collage you can go right to the source. I think thats pretty awesome.

So here are my collages:

Dark Classic Lolita

Merry Making in Ghost Town


Icy Winter Land
Thanks for reading! Yours truely,

Review Time: Commission by Yumenator

A few weeks ago, while I was browsing Facebook, two cute images popped up on my feed. Two of my friends had commissioned chibi illustrations . They looked adorable. My friend Sera had greatly promoted the artist so I checked out the Facebook page. The artist was Yumenator. She had recently opened commission slots for various different types of illustrations amoung which chibi's. I was very interested to get my own creation so I sent my friend Sera a private message to ask about her experience. She was very positive and encouraged me to contact the artist. So thats what I did.

About:
Yumenator Quote " A simple yet extraordinary art enthusiast who is always open for commissions! My main field is creating adorable and loveable character designs! "
As far as I know she can create any kind of comission if you discuss this with her. Commissions are still open at the moment but she will be starting uni soon so she may have less time. Just send her a message and she will let you know what the possibilities are.

Communication:
It was a real pleasure working with Yumenator to create my chibi illustration. She replied to my emails very quickly and also let me know that she would be away for a few days and wont be able to work on my chibi. She was very friendly too. 
She first asked for a picture of what ever I wanted a chibi of or at least describe what I wanted. Because Im more into Gothic Lolita at the moment I sent her a Gothic Lolita picture of myself. Most of the colours were black. She said it was a bit of a challenge to do the black shading but I think she did a marvolous job. I made my payment by banktransfer which was everything but problematic.I paid 4 Euro for my commission. Thats a great price for what I got.

Product:

So this is the final product. I am very happy with it. I love its cute and darkness. Yumenator really did a wonderful job on my commission. I really recommend Yumenator and will definitely be keeping in contact with her for future commissions. I have something Halloweeny in mind.


Links:
Yumenators Facebook page
Yumenators Deviant Page

Thanks for reading! Yours truely,

LBC: Create A Coord Based On Your Favorite Song

I'm back with another LBC post! I'm a little late with this weeks topic but regardless of that here is my post.

It was really hard to choose a favorite song because I dont really have one. But because Halloween is coming up (I am obsessed with that holiday) and I happen to have been listening to a lot of Halloween related music I chose this song: Spooky Scary Skeletons by Andrew Gold. I first heard it in a video by LovelyLor. I totally love it. Its so cute and creepy. I chose the skeleton visual aspect of the song for my coord. Therefore the bones you see in the coord. I gave the coord a creepy cute twist. I also based this coord on the fact that the person wearing this has a lot of confidence and doesnt care what others may think of her. Thus "sticks and bones may break my bones!"
Take a look below.

Hope you liked my coord it was a lot of fun to make! See you next time!

Here´s what the other´s had to say: (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧

☆ Candied Dreams

☆The Bloody Tea Party

Thanks for reading! Your´s truely,

LBC: ~ Plan Your Ideal Holiday Trip To Tokyo For Frills~

 Haven't done one of these in a while but this weeks topic was just too good to miss. I added this topic to the Lolita Blog Carnival poll a few weeks ago and finally it was chosen. I was very happy!
I had been doing a lot of planning for a upcoming trip to Tokyo anyway actually and I was eager to share my ideas as well as to read about the ideas of the other writers. This post will however be more extensive because, after all, this is my ¨ideal¨ trip.

 So to describe my ideal trip to Tokyo ¨for frills.¨ Well I've been to Tokyo already and came to a realization that frills was just one of the many wonderful things to do/buy/experience there. I remember when I made my first planner it was full of Lolita things to do. When I actually arrived, ate, slept and breathed Tokyo I was soon shown a whole new world. The Lolita aspect was a wonderful experience but there are many more wonders in Tokyo. So my ideal trip will also include other aspects of Tokyo Japan which are equally as cute, amazing and delicious.

First off lets talk when to go, flights and a sleeping spot(s) for the trip. This is always the most exciting part I find. By the way, I am a perfectionist and it literally took me days/weeks to research the perfect deals, times to go to Japan for, locations to stay in, hotels and airbnb´s, so I could get really detailed. You have been warned.

Duration, when to go to Tokyo and flights:

I definitely want to stay for at least two weeks and in the month of October. Tokyo´s Halloween season is awesome plus I love Halloween so that's where that came from. Exact dates? Well I was thinking something among the lines of leaving for Tokyo on the 17th of October and arriving on the 18th between three and four in the afternoon. By the time I get into Tokyo it should be around five or six. That gives me enough time to head to the airbnb, get a bite to eat and go to bed. The reason I chose to arrive later during the day is because I want to overcome any jet-lag. Jet-lag just really sucks. The first time I went ,I arrived really early in the morning and suffered greatly from the jet-lag. I thought I would really tire myself out during that day and would have a great sleep but that didn't happen. I was so sleepy the whole day long and when it was finally time to go to bed I was wide awake. I hope that by arriving later and going to bed sooner my body will adjust much better and quicker. I would return on the 3rd of November. Enough time to relax after Halloween partying and enjoying sneak peaks of the Christmas decoration. I would like to fly with ANA (All Nippon Airways). They are a Japanese airline that offer you the Japanese experience on the flight. To me they had the most comfortable looking planes (with good leg room and a lot of comfort), great food (Asian and western style) and they have great prices. I haven't flown with them before but I am already greatly impressed by reviews from other travelers.

With whom Id go and where to stay:
My ideal people to go with would be my significant other and 2 friends. A group of four is equal so no one is left out. We would share a lovely airbnb apartment together in Otsuka which is in Toshima. I stayed in Otsuka previously and I loved the area. Its quite central but still very quiet and reserved. The area was also quite residential which was really nice. Plus its connected to the Yamanote line, which gets you pretty much to most of the central attractions in Tokyo or connections to the other places.
We all know that Tokyo is very known for its compactness therefore small and compact everything. When it comes to a place to stay its fine if you're by yourself in a tiny room but with a group of 4 we at least had to have some space for privacy and suitcases, I would have two. This reflected my choice in airbnb. If you haven't heard of airbnb yet I suggest you really look up the website. They have great accommodations for every occasion and person. They´re not hotels. Its basically a website where people, around the world, rent out their homes etc. But this can differ in many ways. You can either rent just a room from people, or stay in a share-house (which means the whole house belongs to one person and they are renting many rooms out to travelers and you share the kitchen, bathroom etc) or you can have a whole house/apartment  to yourself. The latter one was my first choice.
Even though I like the idea of trying out the tatami cultural experience I think I would prefer a western style bed in my apartment. Sleep is holy okay?!

So we've covered the basics. Now for things I would like to do, see, taste, buy, etc.

~Kawaii Things to do and see~:

Like I've mentioned before there is so much to do in Tokyo. There are endless possibilities and each more strange and diverse than the other. I've already done some major sightseeing last time I went so I wont be mentioning those. Im going to mention the following in a list style. I feel this will be much easier to read.

☆Tokyo tower
☆Disney Sea
☆Visit a cat cafe
☆Visit more than one maid cafe (Maid Dreamin to be exact. Moe Moe Kyuuuunnn ♥)
☆Visit a butler cafe (Swallowtale)
☆Attend a Lolita meet up in Lolita
☆Go to a Kera snap shot
☆Attend Harajuku fashion walk in Harajuku!
☆Attend an autumn festival
☆Go on a boat trip
☆Visit korea town (technically I have already been there. I was visiting the hotel of a friend who was staying there. I didnt do much else.)
☆Play pachinko (Kamekazi girls style!)
☆Visit the different parks in Tokyo (I really loved the parks last time I went. Pure traquility in the middle of the city.)
☆Temple/shrine visiting (Best part of the holiday. Im in love with Japans culture and visiting temples/shrines feels so pure.)
☆Visit Yanesen  (Its a district in Tokyo with lots of shrines and is a great place to stroll and there are loads of cute CATS!)
☆Ikebukuro Sunshine City ( For shopping of course, visiting the planetarium, aquarium and namjatown which is an indoor themepark.)
☆Odaiba (Palette town (Pokemon?) and Venusfort for shopping. There´s also an awesome edo style onsen there!Its called Ooedo onsen monogatari.)
☆Tokyo Bay
☆Do a bike tour (I love to cycle and doing a tour in Tokyo looks like a lot of fun. Tokyo really is a cycling city anyway. Reminds me a lot of The Netherlands where I live.)
☆Of course I need to climb Mt Fuji san.
☆Visit and relax in lovely hot springs (Id like to try out some of the ones on the outskirts of Tokyo. Ive heard they are very beautiful.)
☆Visit Nara ( Because deers are cute!)
☆Visit Kyoto (Visit shrines, temples and Gion and stay in a traditional Japanese ryokan.)
☆Visit Sanrio Puroland  (of all the cutest places to go! To be immersed in cutness and kira kira shinning stars.)
☆Do tons of Purikura (This is so much fun to do! My goal would be to do it whilst wearing Lolita.)
☆Do a Lolita transformation at Maison Juliette (You know Misako Aoki´s booth in Laforet? I saw this cute pink booth last time but I was way too shy to go in. This time I will go and go full OTT.)
☆Do Karaoke (this would be so much fun to do with a group of Lolita friends.)
☆Travel around Japan if the time and the budget allows it (Id love to travel by shinkansen for example. Id love to go see Hokkaido and some of the islands like cat and bunny island because you have to when you love cats and bunnies.)
☆Visit the bunny cafe in Harajuku (BUNNY BUN BUNS ♥♥.)
☆Visit the new Monster Cafe (because I love myself some creepiness.)
Oh the list could go on..

~To taste and savor the flavor forever~:

Ive tried my fair share of foods and drinks in Tokyo but there are so many things I still want to try and retry also.

☆Ramen ♥
☆Curry rice (I so desperatly wanna try this!)
☆Any izakaya food (Izakaya is a Japanese pub which serves small traditional Japanese foods, snacks and drinks.)
☆Try more convenience store food (you would be suprised of how good the food is. Stores include but are not limited to 7Eleven´s, FamilyMart, Lawson and more.)
☆Drink adventures from the vending machines (they are so practical and fun. I loved buying drinks from these. I felt so sad when I came home to normal boring vending machines that are not on every street corner.)
☆Eat good sushi from a Japanese conveyer belt
☆Eat at another alice in wonderland cafe (Ive been to one before in Shinjuku and it was awesome and so cute.)
☆Eat at the lock up restaurant (because why not?)
☆Eat at one of those specialty cafes with themes like Pokemon, PomPom Purin , Sailor Moon or even Funashi themed ♥‿♥ (the Funashi one was at Parco when I was there but the line was sooooo long.)
☆Eat that squid dish (The dancing squid with the soy sauce. Okay this may sound disgusting to some but I would love to try this. Dont know what Im talking about, then Google or Youtube it.)
☆Try some weird ice-cream flavours.
☆Try more tea flavoured things (Japan loves tea flavoured anything. For instance I really loved Starbuck´s matcha frappechino. It had such a unique flavor. I also heard that Dunkin Donuts does some great matcha and earl grey flavours too.)
☆Halloween inspired foods and drinks (because its Ocotber in Tokyo and you gotta go with da flow. But seriously have you seen some of the foods and drinks they sell in Halloween theme? OMG to die for!)
☆Soba (Yummy yummy yummy.)
☆Okonomiyaki (there´s this one restaurant in Harajuku where you get make your own. That sounds so cool.)
☆Melon pan and An pan (My personal favorites ♥‿♥ .)
☆Curry pan
☆Takoyaki (Tiny little octopus balls. Sounds kinda yucky if you say it that way xD.)
There are tons more foods Id like to try but the list could go on and on and on and on.

~Buy-Ikura desu ka?~:

Drop a grand on brand. Haha! First time round I was actally really careful with my money. It literally took me 3/4 days before I made my first purchase, besides from food obviously. I had the grand in my pocket the whole time but was so timed because I didnt want to waste my money on impuls buys. And the funny thing was when coming back I still had 500 euros spending money left and my suitcase was 6 kg lighter for some reason too. Curious, very, curious.

☆Visit Closet Child to buy Lolita and otome style clothing (Of course.)
☆Stop at Bodyline to buy SHOES, SHOES AND MORE SHOES!
☆Any cute clothes store for clothes (In Harajuku, Shinjuku, Shibuya, Akihabara and anywhere where my eyes see cute clothes!)
☆Plunder all the Disneystores in Tokyo, Land and Sea (Big Disney fan! Guilty as charged!)
☆Make-up and beauty products ( Totally captivated by Asian beauty products and make-up. Brands like Etude House are so cool. Asian make-up is so cute. Plus Lashes are awesome too. They have soooooo many different kinds and brands.)
☆Daiso! (For any random needed stuff! I remember being at the Daiso in Harajuku haven heard it was huge but actually thinking it wasn´t that big at all. Only later (when I was back home) did I find out the store has a whole other floor down stairs...-_-. Man I felt stupid. Well next time I will explore more.)
☆Souveniers (For all the family and friends back home. Id love to get some of the realistic plastic foods. They look so delicious.)
☆Instax camera film refills (Lots and lots of these. I remember there was this one shop I totally adored located in Ikeburuko, Shibuya and Akihabara. They sold really cute house-hold items, stationary, instax cameras, orniments, tons of anime and manga, phone cases, key-rings and the list just goes on and on. That was my favotite shop in Tokyo. It was called something amoung the lines of Van Guard? Im not sure anymore.)
☆Stationery (oh please dont get me started on stationary in Japan. Its is soo adorable. I just wanted to spend all my money on it but realising I have so much at home already. If I could have I would have dropped a few grand on stationary alone *gets all emotional*.)
☆Swimmer (I have a customer card from them cause I bought loads of stuff from them previously. They sell such cute and practical stuff. Their bags were my favorite. I have a bag thing. Can never have too many different themed, coloured and shaped bags.)

I think its really funny that this list is the shortest of all three. Haha. Maybe thats the reason I came back home with so much money to spare xD.

Every day would be an adventure but I wont forget to relax every other day in an onsen of course. There has to be a nice balance. Waw if all of this was possible then Id be a mega happy little lady. Well one can dream and I find that if you dream bigger you may not get that one dream but you would still get better than if you dreamt more realistically. I like to be creative and positive like that. Or at least I try to anyway.

Here´s what the other´s had to say: (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧


☆ Candied Dreams

☆ Pink Lace and Glitter

Thanks for reading! Your´s truely,

My Quarter Life Crisis:The journey begins

Its been a long time since I last wrote, and that's a shame. Especially when I thought things were going in the right direction. But I was redirected. People (me) change and I have to come to terms with that. The things I wrote about in the past weren't motivating me to continue writing anymore and I didn't feel I was expressing my full potential doing what I did. I thought doing what others were doing was also my way forward, but unfortunately that wasn't so. It certainly wasn't fulfilling my wants and needs.
In the posts to come I want to talk more about the person I have been, am and may be in the future. I feel that all through my life I have been misjudged on the things I have done or do and I would like to explain why because recently things have become a lot more clearer to me than ever before. I am out to find out who I am and what I want and can give in life. To sense that happiness I long for so dearly. Whilst remembering that its the journey that's important. I hope that this will inspire me to find my love for life and writing again.

BIG, FAT piece of life with a cherry on top please:
At the moment I am experiencing a big, fat share of life, with some nice and some not so nice moments. It has informed me that things cant go on the way they are any longer.  I have to let go and rebuild and that's a very scary thing to come face to face with. I knew it was coming though. Change can be a rather hard and scary thing to confront and its lurking around every corner. Watching every move you make. People fear whats good for them even though its for the better. This also goes for me. For years I firmly believed that holding onto my identity, from then, was the only way forward. That it was the only way to stay true and pure. I believed that my identity would never change. I was wrong, and now I´m scared to face what ever may come next.

Green of envy:
I have been feeling incomplete and down these past two years, and the last few months have been the worst. I have lost my way in life at the moment. I don't know who I am and what I love in life. I've lost interest in countless of hobbies, goals and cant keep up a stable way of living. Every day I wonder how to take the next step and its hard. Failing again and again. I beat myself up about it which makes the situation even worse. And seeing other people bloom in success and happiness makes me angry and jealous. Which is terrible of me. I hardly recognize myself anymore.

Baby steps:
So I've decided to take a different approach to my life. Its hard, slow and I have no idea how to do it properly and there really isn't one proper way of doing it either. But I do know it will definitely be for the better. I'm so sick and tired of being unhappy, unsatisfied and unmotivated. I want everything to be new and exciting again because now it feels like I'm in a midlife crises but then way too early in my life. Who wants that?!
I may document my progress here in hope to help others that may be going through the same thing. Together we are stronger! And I also hope others may better understand me because this is something I have been struggling with my whole life especially the last 10 years.

If you have been following my blog for a while and like my Lolita endeavors you might notice a few changes coming. I may be posting less about Lolita and more about life and such things. There will definitely still be a share of frills and glitter (heck I love frills and glitter) involved so look forward to that later on. That is if anyone reads my posts at all.

Google knows all:
I've Googled my questions countless times on what to do when feeling lifeless and blob-like and came across some great inspirational blogs, articles, videos etc. The authors of these let me know that I am not the only one out there feeling this way. My dad also supports me with a lot of life advice and I've learned quite a bit about myself and the human mind in general. This is what I gathered up to begin with so far:

Change
I have to accept that life is like sand. Constantly moving and changing. To me that's the best way to describe it. Change can be for the better or the worse. Sometimes good changes come disguised as bad ones and you only realize what good it has done once you have embraced it.
I've come to realize that life is good and its up to me to make me happy.

Fear
Its a natural thing to feel and a dominant monster to rule over you should you let your mind turn dark. Recently I've been scared of a lot of things. Silly things but nevertheless things that hold me back on taking important steps in my life. My dad says that I need to accept and love fear in order for us to get along. Its good to fear things but bad if you let it take control. I hope to find myself by confronting my fears. I feel that only then can I move on.

This wraps up the beginning of a new chapter on my blog. I will be posting more soon. Hopefully this has already helped some in some way or another. I feel nervous but good for haven finally finished this post after months of writing and hope this suffices as my next stepping stone in life.

Some interesting places to lurk in dark times:
Words of encouragement 

 Peace out!

P.s this isn't a cry for attention if there are some who think so. I'm merely opening up to myself and others hoping that this will help me in life. I hope you can understand and if not then I suggest you read something else.

Happy International Lolita Day!

What are you guys planning today? Dressing up? Attending a meet up? Baking delicious cakes or cookies with cute friends? Or maybe absolutely nothing?

Here, where I live, we happen to be blessed with wonderful weather this weekend plus there's a funfair in town! So I'll probably be going there. Not sure if I will be dressed up though. I'm also having this crazy idea of showing up at some friends' with a gift!

Tomorrow I will be attending a meet up in celebration to Loli day! I cant wait. We're going to visit a Japanese garden and restaurant. It's going to be so much fun!

Thanks for reading and take care!

LBC: Lolitas Around The World: Who Inspires You?

I'm back with another Lolita Blog Carnival post. This weeks theme was another fun and personal choice and I was excited to share my story.

At first it was hard to think of a Lolita that inspires me. So I browsed around my inspiration folder and noticed a few Lolita's and Kawaii fashion wearers pop up quite often. These people inspire me through fashion, make-up and photoshoot ideas and poses.

The first Lolita inspiration I came across was Shelby Cloud. I had just started Lolita fashion and stumbled upon her YouTube channel. I loved how she was so experimental. She always looks cute and elegant. Not only did her style attract me to the fashion but also her personality. On her channel she gives tips, tutorials and such and she always comes over as a kind gentle person. Due to work she's not as active anymore but even then she's still my number one. 

Alexa Poletti is not so much a Lolita fashion wearer but I still love her style and it influeneces my outfits too. It was my boyfriend who first found a picture of her a few years ago. And ever since we've been fans. I think what I love most about her most is her wigs and make-up. I love wigs and make-up and because of her I found my own make-up look which I coorporate into my Lolita looks.

This is one of my latest inspirations. None other than shironuri fashion artist Minori. I really love OTT fashions and make-up and she goes even beyond that. Her style is magical and intriging. I would love to try out this style one day. I try to create a sense of magicalnes in my outfits due to her.

 Other than the people mentioned above I still collect a whole lot of inspirations from lots of different people on Tumblr, Facebook etc. What ever I find interesting and pretty would go into my inspiration folder. I love a bit of everything.

Should you be interested in other inspirations? Do check out the list below:

Jewellery Box of Starry Eyed Lolita

Lace Jail

A Hearts Sound

Vanillas Traumfabrik

Thanks for reading and take care!